...i have now been sickly for at least two days.... the typical cold.... sore throat, runny nose, congestion that makes you sound like one of the looney tunes :-p, and an intermittent low-grade fever... now the cough is starting :-/.
but i really feel like it's all due to me pushing myself too hard in the last week or two... staying up too late when i knew i should have gone to bed earlier... trying to be superhero to everyone else.. and trying to fix my own dilemma's with my own strength.
... in actuality I can really thank the Lord that he has allowed me to get sick, because I feel it to be some sort of discipline for me to get back on track with Him... and actually listen to what He has to say. And to also gives me a break from the craziness of this world and living inside the complicated thoughts in my own head....
....that i might just be still and know that He is God.
after 2 days of illness... i'm finally feeling the Lord's presence closer, and finally feeling refreshed. In this it is clear that it is the Lord's doing... because is it normal to feel better after getting sick? haha. I love Jesus, and the wonderful ways He works. He knows exactly what we need at the time we need it. And He will do whatever to win us back to Him, praise His glorious Name! :).
...sometimes He lets everything come crashing down at once so He'll get our attention. He might bring confusing situations... or illness.... or ...ahem.. a broken vehicle ... .. or even those times of loneliness where everyone you would have wanted to talk with seems busy... etc etc etc....you fill in the blank.
But if we take a step back, surely it is all because He is after our hearts ... and these situations teach us to be after His. ...after His heart that is.
He knows what buttons to push in order to get us to come back to Him... sometimes i feel like i am so incredibly stubborn... it takes quite a few buttons. But thank the Lord in His mercy, He disciplines us. :)
Be blessed this night in knowing that all things work together for the good of those who Love God and are called according to His purpose...
... because He is the one putting the puzzle together, not us ... may we learn once again to say ... "yes, Lord".. and submit to His glorious, perfect will....which in the End will be soooo worth it.
....but even just His presence today is enough :). Thank you, Jesus.
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